Stop It

I'm screaming inside my head

Trying to drown it out

Trying to stop thinking about

How lonely I am

How lonely I will always be

How much I love

To no effect

How the ones I love

Laugh at my face

As off the race

To be loved

And wanted

To be needed

and held

God I wish I were dead

I wish I weren't at work

Trying not to cry

Knowing I am useless

Unwantably alone

And so fucking sick of the people I love

Who feel compelled to remind me,

They don't reject other friends

They don't reject sex

They just reject me

Even they

Don't want to hold me

But oh boy do they like

To tell me about everyone else they do want to hold