July 14th |
Terror screams inside me Yet my lips refuse to move Rough hands remove my clothes And force me to the ground I know what comes next Try to escape inside Away from the pain Of being torn apart Yet when it comes The fierceness of his rage Forces me back To a reality i can not stop Though I want to cry I know he would only enjoy My tears more That much I can deny him A few short minutes And he is done and gone In a few days the pain will begin to fade but I'll never escape The fears that will keep me alone for the rest of my life Never trusting anyone Desperate for a gentle caress But no one can touch me Without nausea filling me Will I see him again In some club I can never forget his face But could I meet his eyes? Why do I feel the shame Is it not enough That I feel the pain? I'd wanted the first To be so special A night to remember Instead of a night I beg myself to forget In my bed at home I sit against the wall Door locked Staring at the walls And rock myself to sleep. | 1993-08-10 |