I Hope | I hope that no one ever understands Why I kill myself I hope that no one ever goes thru A life like mine That they could understand What it was like Growing up in a family Where my own parents hated me Growing up so alone in the world I hope that no one ever is A little kid So desperate for a father's love That he lets men abuse him Begs for it so that someone will touch him I hope that no one ever Sit alone Every night Like I have The past 32 years Crying Wishing Someone would reach out And just hold me Wishing Someone could see thru the wall of sex I use to scare them away I hope that no one Ever knows what it's like to know That no one will ever care As much To know that my place will always be After the wife After the kids After the parents After the friends After the house Whatever's leftover If I'm not too down for you Otherwise You tell me derisvely Just be happy yeah It's so in my control I have so much to live for yeah The only people in the whole world who love me Said we love you, so long as you stay 5 feet away yeah I have so much to live for I hope That no one ever knows Why I kill myself I hope they read these words The angry part of me hopes they hurt a little But the part of me that loves the world I hope That no one ever knows what it's like to be me | 2002-04-06 |